I believe it is a crime to never acknowledge your greatness and never share it with the world. I use to be the kind of girl that was scared to shout on the rooftop about my accomplishments until I realize someone else needs my inspiration, testimonies and story. I love life and live it abundantly because in my life I had too many tragedies impact me especially on February 20, 2007 when my two year old daughter left this world. My children are my joy and to lose a child is like a stab in the heart; painful and sometimes you wonder is recovery possible. After my oldest daughter and I had to endure the pain of losing my sweet two year old daughter, Serenity T. Bowden we somehow had to pick up the pieces. The hardest part in my life was picking up the pieces acting as if life goes on but for me it stopped and nothing remained the same. I was no longer the person everyone wanted me to be but I was bitter, angry and hurt. However, with my strong faith in the Lord he utilized this pain to turn it into a purpose bigger than me. I was a writer since I was eight years old but my gift, passion came full circle when I got stationed in South Carolina five years ago when I was still in the U.S. Navy. The tragedy of losing an angel gave me the courage to share my pain through the written word. I expressed my pain, triumphs and healing through the gift of words which became my source of healing. Every time I released the pen it reminded me of my dreams and sharing them with my family when I was young speaking of being a great famous writer. After exiting the military in 2008 I was broken with open wounds still needing some repair. I had a void but nothing to fill it but my will to write and overcome the pain. In 2011, a four year relationship ended with a man I fell in love with but little did I know it was the beginning of finding my authentic self. I took two years to face the real me by coping with internal issues and stopping the insanity in my life. Some chains needed to be broken but others around me realized I was changing no longer being the people pleaser and control freak. I lost some friendships in the process but I can truly say I am so glad I stayed true to myself, walking boldly in my truth. Today, I live bold, loud and authentically without societal validation celebrating who I am. This moment that happen six years ago changed the way I view and live life. My youngest daughter time on this Earth affected so many people. My oldest daughter and I keep Serenity’s memory alive by not taking life for granted. I always have to live with the pain of losing a child but I have a choice to let this pain stop me or motivate me to keep going to share my gift with the world. I choose to let this pain fuel me to share my gift and passion to inspire humanity. My plate is large but God has given me all the tools I need to motivate & inspire those that are put in my path. So, I continue to release the pen so healing can begin…..This was the result of the rebirth of me!
In this new journey I am undergoing it is requiring me to look at myself and life in a different spectrum. I have always been a person who allowed things to easily upset, frustrate or annoy me. I would find myself losing my composure enticing my emotions to jump off the deep end. However, in the last two weeks I have been taking lessons in being a calmer person. My daughter has given me great lessons in learning to embrace life on a whole new level. My daughter is only ten years old but I realize how much her presence in my life has been a gift to me. As I observe her I have found out that my daughter has a gift of tranquility. She is such a sweet, pleasant, quiet, and humorous person to be around. Her spirit has truly enlighten my life in great ways in the last two weeks. It’s funny how God uses the small things in life to get our attention in order to produce the person he want us to be. Peace is important to have because it teaches you how to be still when chaos, turmoil, anger and other emotions are present. The negative emotions we convey are like a hurricane ready to tear up our lives to destroy our peace. It is imperative to learn to not run away every time life seems to be stressful but to learn to stand and command your peace to be still. When you are always trying to escape your life then you find yourself running from things because you do not have any peace from within. Vacations are great but in life it requires us to learn how to escape chaotic situations by taking small vacations of peace. This peace journey has challenged me to see how important it is to calm down and regroup my emotions before I allow them to get the best of me. Peace is the essential key to unlock the great blessings of our lives. When you have peace from within you will learn how to enjoy the simple pleasures of life. Peace will overtake you and you will find it to be valuable throughout your life. Many people search for peace but never find it because they fail to realize where it lies. Peace lies within us all we just have to learn to connect to the source of it.
Below are simple steps you can take to receive, walk and live in your peace:
1. Get to the root: Realize that everything that needs to be dealt with has a root. Get to the root of your problem. Once the root is found then uprooting process begins….
2. Takers: Understand the cause of what have you allowed to take your peace. Peace is a free gift given by God since the beginning of time. Figure out the “taker agents” (who or what have you allowed to steal your peace)
3. Inspect That Gadget: Inspect the environment you are in and observe whether you have been the cause of your own chaotic state. Sometimes we can create our own chaos and drama so we begin to attract these same things in our environment.
4. The Source: If you do not know who is the source of your peace then no matter what journey you take you will continue to detour down an endless road. In Christianity Jesus Christ is our source of peace because he is peace. So be willing to find the source of your peace